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Of Heaven and Hell

Well the title of this was certainly more appropriate a few minutes ago, before reading my last few entries. Amidst all the despair and wandering I felt comforted; less alone, like my writing was that of another’s. I came to this page for release. It’s been too long. Why I put it off even knowing […]

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Ride and Die

1:39pm, Ho Chi Minh City Today I woke to the comforting sounds of rain, filling me with memories of growing up in the Pacific Northwest. To me warm rain is like a warm blanket. The warm rain of my past tugs at my heart. Today I awoke to a dream life, a dream of memories. […]

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As You Did

Well if I can’t remember why I picked up the pen in the first place then I’ll simply write about The Despair. Once again this morning I was engulfed by it. It comes from the pressure to succeed; the fear of failure. I wake up and immediately I’m hit with it. It comes from the […]

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Meditations

Bubblues Burstis

Reputation. Let’s talk it. A reputation has no benefit to a person other than that which is measurable. I’m talking dollars and cents. Forget being liked. Forget looking perfect for the sake of being considered so. Where is the utility? There is indeed utility in glamour. It drives prices up. It creates an air of […]

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Automatic Writings

Goodness Gracious Me

Silence . . . silence . . . Oftentimes I avoid it, trading it for the pleasures of music. But what a sacrifice. What a misstep. Even now as I write this work, I merely date and do not title. To shout at the wind as if to speak magic words: one seeks disappointment knowing […]

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Eagle Eye

Sitting on the edge of a fertile valley. Trees push uphill in the distance, hands on each other’s backs like a trail of army ants: Brotherhood of Green. Smoke fills the vale from unknown sources. Little lights open their eyes and blink on, as dusk descends upon the highlands. This is my place — having […]

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Automatic Writings

Ghosts II

I wanted to speak with you, but I’m not sure how because I don’t know who you are. You don’t? No. I used to think I did. But that wasn’t really you, was it? No. Another ghost? Yes. Then whom do I speak to now? It’s no different just because the timeline’s shorter. This, might […]

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Meditations

Sovereign

Life lived in limbo — what’s the opposite? Not stopping. Not getting hung up. Not falling victim to a mind that gets stuck on any one issue, as this getting stuck is fatal. How could it not be when time itself is the lifeblood of life, itself. And so when we sacrifice our time to […]

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Letters

Message in a Bottle

If you’re reading this, the answer is Yes. Followed by I Know. And this is why, I haven’t done so. I have seen the barrier, but only a glimpse. The glimpse struck me deeply, but the knowing withdrew. I was like a rabid dog that day, out in the middle of nowhere. And I know […]

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The Problem Is . . .

I’ll tell you like it is and I won’t hold back. The problem is that you desire to control and to image-pad and to prevent nature from showing its true teeth. You desire to not be who and where you are as you are. You feel that it’s not amenable and pleasurable and desirable and […]