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Alone

The desire to escape to far-off lands magnifies. I find myself growing evermore tired of the monotony of comfort and familiarity. Sometimes things feel so meaningless and disappointing that I just want to give it all up. It’s when I’m unable to decipher the truth that the apathy comes back. Everything is indeed meaningless — […]

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Meditations

On Truth and God

I come now, having pulled the string from my teeth. Arriving at the shore, drenched, and covered in sand. “The truth is God,” he said. But who said? And where did I come from? The underworld is full of lies, and being thrust from it leaves one exquisitely disarrayed. But the path is true, and […]

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Manifestos

Space Cadet

As I sit here alone and write this, I feel enormous peace. It is possible this peace can only be felt when alone. In fact, I am almost certain of this — at least for me, in this stage of my life. It has never been more obvious to me than now: I have always […]

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Falling Hard on the Rocky Floors of Reality

The truth comes down on me hard. I have been caught in a tormentful spell: the natural result of living in domestic hell. I have been chasing things I thought I’d learned not to chase long ago. I see a path laid before me, but I have not been able to overcome the constant torrents […]

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Automatic Writings

Seeking

It’s lateAnd I’m still seekingThe keysDelicately disarming, a time bombSeeing that which needs to be seenBefore a wheel starts spinningAnd whisks me awayBefore the marbles start rollingIn every directionNothing’s as it seemsThis I knowAnd I’m terrifiedOf what’s leftLurking belowThe fog

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Manifestos

Something Within Me . . .

I once came upon a cliff. Below it: an endless ocean of possibility. Something within me wanted to swim. But something else, desired only to preserve my life. And this something else was stronger than I, for I lived through this something. Its whispered lies were so convincing, so nefariously subtle — that I mistook […]