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Automatic Writings

Goodness Gracious Me

Silence . . . silence . . . Oftentimes I avoid it, trading it for the pleasures of music. But what a sacrifice. What a misstep. Even now as I write this work, I merely date and do not title. To shout at the wind as if to speak magic words: one seeks disappointment knowing […]

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Journals

Eagle Eye

Sitting on the edge of a fertile valley. Trees push uphill in the distance, hands on each other’s backs like a trail of army ants: Brotherhood of Green. Smoke fills the vale from unknown sources. Little lights open their eyes and blink on, as dusk descends upon the highlands. This is my place — having […]

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Automatic Writings

Ghosts II

I wanted to speak with you, but I’m not sure how because I don’t know who you are. You don’t? No. I used to think I did. But that wasn’t really you, was it? No. Another ghost? Yes. Then whom do I speak to now? It’s no different just because the timeline’s shorter. This, might […]

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Meditations

Sovereign

Life lived in limbo — what’s the opposite? Not stopping. Not getting hung up. Not falling victim to a mind that gets stuck on any one issue, as this getting stuck is fatal. How could it not be when time itself is the lifeblood of life, itself. And so when we sacrifice our time to […]

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Letters

Message in a Bottle

If you’re reading this, the answer is Yes. Followed by I Know. And this is why, I haven’t done so. I have seen the barrier, but only a glimpse. The glimpse struck me deeply, but the knowing withdrew. I was like a rabid dog that day, out in the middle of nowhere. And I know […]

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Letters

The Problem Is . . .

I’ll tell you like it is and I won’t hold back. The problem is that you desire to control and to image-pad and to prevent nature from showing its true teeth. You desire to not be who and where you are as you are. You feel that it’s not amenable and pleasurable and desirable and […]

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Meditations

What is Hope?

I don’t need hope. Why would I regulate what I can have now to hope? Maybe it’s because I haven’t considered what I have now as much as I should have. To drop into a senseless void to make sense of it all. There are so many things at play here. So many things I’ve […]

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Automatic Writings

Everything In Its Right Place

Back in my own boots. Not looking is what allows me to see. No more getting twisted up in the roots. No more trying to create waves when there’s no wind. Either it’s captured, or it dies. Once it’s gone, it’s gone. No place to go, no place to see. Almost 28 years, and it’s […]

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Automatic Writings

Don’t Look Up

It’s been a while. Stay a while. Let me tell you about the daggers hanging, handles spinning; blades heavy, and ready to fall. I knew they were there. I could hear them calling me. “Don’t look up,” I thought. Daggers in the ceiling. False ideals; misguided chases. Sharp truths, of every kind. …Don’t look up. […]

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Automatic Writings

Fear For You

I fear you’ll be lost forever. I fear we’ll never get that magic back. I fear that time is running out. I fear feeling like we had our masterpiece stolen from us. I fear we’ll never have another chance. I fear you’re too blind for that, now. This fear arises as the blockages are removed. […]